Pick up yer bible fool

Pay attention when the Lord disciplines you. Don't give up when he corrects you. The Lord disciplines everyone he loves. Hebrews 12:5-6
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I couldn't be any more thankful for coming across this bible verse tonight. Lately I have felt discouraged with my walk of faith because I haven't gotten what I want from God, but to be honest, I haven't put much effort into praying and solidifying my relationship with Him. Silly how self centered humans can be sometimes. How can I EXPECT blessings from God when I don't ''work'' for them? Selfish. Shaking my silly human head. I am a fool to think I DESERVE what I WANT when God is capable of providing IMMEASURABLY MORE than what I could EVER ask for. 

Patience.
          ..patience.

      patience..

That is something I have discovered God is trying to teach me. Silly little me prayed for God to teach me patience as I can be very impatient at times. Careful what you pray for ladies and gents because God WILL teach you valuable lessons the hard way. It's the only way to really teach someone so they fully comprehend the importance of it. Nothing worth while comes easy as they say. SO be it.

COMMUNITY.COMMUNITY.COMMUNITY<<------

This is another concept God is trying to teach the importance of, to me. Unfortunately, I don't have a Christian community, or any community for that matter, in Minocqua right now. But boy oh boy am I learning how to fight a battle as a lone soldier. It's effing annoying. I hate it. But through my own decisions I have brought myself to where I am and God will be by my side through it all. I am in fact NOT alone. So I take my comment from earlier back. I am not a lone soldier, I have God. BUT I sure do feel lonely without a community.

This is where the whole patience term comes in. God is teaching me patience to not only get through this lonely battle on my own, but patience for finding that perfect community of which I belong. 
I don't feel like your typical teenager. You see, I am quite different from the rest. I always look at things from every possible perspective that I can come up with, however I get lost within those perspectives and lose touch of the correct or best perspective to see the situation from. 
This is not the quality, however, that separates me from many other teens. It is only one aspect. And an aspect that throws me off course far too often. The characteristic of looking at many perspectives could also be translated as being an open minded person... I love being a FREE SPIRIT. I would consider this to be the separation factor, however, I am much more complicated than that. 

Many girls my age are trying to figure out who they really are. Including myself. Many girls my age are insecure, selfish, blunt, stupid, pretty, smart, annoying, funny, bitches, nice (not many), and so on. I am very guilty for all the above whether good or bad, oh well. That is all part of what makes me, me. However, I am a free spirit that believes everyone should be entitled to their own free spirits and not judged for who they are. Not bitched at for what they do. Not dissected by every other insecure human being. There really is no need for "put downs" (universal term from first grade haaa) because if I have to break it down for you the term FREE spirit entitles that we are FREE to be who we are, what we are, what we strive to be. Every perfection, every flaw, every characteristic of each and every one of us is just a unique representation that separates YOU from ME. And I think that is just pure beauty. Everyone is different. Not ONE person is the same as the next. Sure, things can be similar. We can have similar tastes, but NOTHING is identical. (For you jack asses twins can be identical, but even they can be very different). 

SO, as annoying as it is when someone copies something you do. Stop yourself before you get upset and start "bitching" because it is actually the biggest compliment from anyone you can have. They appreciate your style, something about you, enough to want to make it part of their own unique style. So let it be and just smile. It might be the same item or what not, but they will wear it differently than you. It wont look the same on both of you. Because again, we are all different people. Embrace your individuality  People love being unique. The best way to fit in, is actually to stand out ;)