From My Head to My Heart

I recently fasted social networking websites including, facebook, instagram, and twitter. It was challenging for me because I lived and breathed on those websites throughout my day. It was refreshing to take a breather from them and I quickly realized they consumed too much of my life and time. Social networking cites are not a bad thing to be part of, as long as you don’t develop a bad habit of always checking them to see what’s new. Yes, I do like them to keep updated on my friends lives.. but what I didn’t realize was I was living my life by checking on theirs. I sound really lame right now, and I was. Still am. Always will be. 

HOWEVER I am now making a conscious effort to make some changes in my life. I have greater purpose than to see the next hot selfie pic on instagram or the next passive aggressive bitchy tweet on the twitter feed. No, I will not spend my time anymore devoting my time to see the latest gossip. I instead will devote my time on my relationship with God. I have so many resources to dig deeper in my faith with God, it’s about time I put them to use! My favorite resource is my book “Daily Gifts of Hope” it’s similar to “Jesus Calling” in that it provides daily devotions that speak the truth and motivate your faith with Christ. The advice in every day’s devotion ALWAYS applies to life and has importance to all lives. I really recommend reading a daily devotion book if you’re curious of your faith.  There is so much wisdom to be absorbed from this book and I thank God for finding this gem J Anytime I am feeling down, upset, or confused, I am sure to go to this source as an escape to a more peaceful mind set. It’s pure bliss soaking in God’s word. There is NOTHING more satisfying. I promise you.

So I lost my voice two days ago. I sound like a 13 year old boy going through puberty. How wonderful. The funny thing is two days ago I prayed that I could learn how to distinguish God’s voice over mine and tune into what He is trying to communicate to me on a daily basis. Did I ever get my prayer answered by God hitting the “mute” button on me. Never underestimate God’s sense of humor. He sure is witty. BUT God knows me inside and out, better than I know my own self, so He knows I ALWAYS learn better the hard way… so here I am sounding like a 13 year old boy. I’ve never been so quiet in my life. HA I have so many things I wish to say, but instead am learning to listen to what others have to tell me as I nod and drink something to sooth my sore throat. What a good God we have. Being sick like this excites me now, though. Because I believe God is really trying to get my attention and I think it’s going to be for something really good considering I lost my voice over it. But that’s just my mind set.

As I’ve been getting older entering my 20’s I am trying to recreate myself. I’m trying to be the woman God intended me to be by surrendering all of my own selfish desires and looking to only Him for guidance. After all, you will never be satisfied trying to achieve satisfaction on your own. We are all programmed to find satisfaction through something bigger than us… Something like… GOD. So I am on this fasting kick that is my way of worshiping God in an active manner. Last weeks’ focus was social media. I will continue to put less focus on that, however surrender another bad habit I have to God. My hope is that I can subtract my poor behaviors a week at a time. Stripping myself of all impurities and focusing more of my time in praising Christ. Judge me. See how far that gets you. I am very determined to do what I wish with my life and some people may not understand my motives. I’m praying for you. Lol shtuff Christian girls say. My sister would appreciate that line at least, and so does God. So there.

Letting go of something that holds importance in your heart is impossible to do for yourself alone. We are simply not strong enough on our own. That is why when push comes to shove, any human being will make a pitty prayer to God whether they believe in Him normally, or not. It’s true. And it’s good. Because things do turn around. Things do get better. Because when we come to God for help, He provides us with strength that is unfathomable to us. But as soon as things turn around for the better… what do you do? Do you continue to come to God whether it be gratefulness for things turning around, or forget the very being that saved you and try living on your own again? It’s not easy living for God. It’s ALWAYS a swim upstream. BUT, as you fix your eyes on God more and more He provides the strength to worship Him naturally. The work you put in, is the work you get out. Isn’t that how it’s always been? That’s how it is with faith too. Want to try living life for yourself or others? Do it. See how long you stay happy. Guarantee you it won’t be long, because true happiness comes from living for God.